Reflecting

Today I have reflected on where I am and how I got here. My niece has been using me as her example of it all turns out okay. But it doesn't always. Somedays I wonder if there is a reason for it all and did God wake up today and just laugh at me. There are other days when the sun shines down and life is good.
The real question is though where do I go from here and how do I get there. Recently I have been just being and and not doing. I have been in a funk so to speak and just functioning. I wonder is there more to me than what I see and have done. I must start this soul search to find me and define who I am.
I reflect on where I have been and realize that I don't always like it or approve of it. I need to look back more and learn from my mistakes realizing that I cann't grow as a person without some self discovery. I must admit I have been misguided a time or two or three in my life but am looking for the road map now. I am going to start at church and work me way out in baby steps from there. We will see where it leads me and if I find out much about myself while there. I bet I will.